I'm a drug addict.

I can't believe the amount of medication I'm on. It's truly silly. Yesterday, I had another scare and went to the ER for a check up. I was shitting blood again but of a different hue this time. I had really bad abdominal pain and since my pain tolerance is well above normal, I thought it would be a good idea to get looked at in case it was something serious. Well, they stuck a tube up through my nose and into my stomach again to see if the bleeding was in my stomach or lower in my G.I. tract. For those of you who haven't had this procedure, let me tell you that it's rather unpleasant. This was the second time in 3 weeks so I wasn't too stoked to say the least.

Anyway, the docs decided that whatever was causing my bleeding wasn't life threatening this time and could be sorted out with outpatient care. Cool. No hospital stay for me. I'm on more medication now though. It's gotten to the point to where if I didn't have medical coverage, there'd be pretty much no way I could pay for my meds, much less my hospital stay. I don't believe that it's the government's responsibility to provide medical care and I can't imagine how poorly they would run such a program but this most recent stay has made me rethink current insurance protocols. I'd be resigned to death with coverage. There's simply no way around that fact.

The scariest thing about all this is how it's affected my thinking. I have to concentrate harder to thing conceptually now and I often lose my train of thought. My doc says that this will sort itself out as my blood chemistry balances out. I hope so. But in the meantime, please accept my humble apologies for the self absorption as of late. As soon as I'm able, I will try to write things of more substance. Please bear with me.